Post about my little brother goes here.

Ms. Kinder said once that "Good writers and poets learn from other good writers and mimic their style."

So I am going to borrow a phrase/concept from Sarah and Jessica.

I do not want to harp on about leaving or somehow make it a tragedy in my life. It's not. And honestly, I have no reason to complain because I had the best finish to high school, hands down. It was strange because I did not finish high school the same time as anyone else. I am not talking about other high schools finishing earlier or the seniors without 7th period. I am talking about every other senior who finish at 2:27 on friday May 19th, I did not finish with them.

When that bell rang and all the seniors were out in the hall chanting 06, I was in the auditorium working on our musical. It was sad, I wish I had been there since they were standing so close, on the main staircase.

Highschool was not over for me yet. People kept on telling me congradulations but I still had one project left. The musicals. And as long as I had something left to worry about, school was not over. I told KO in the parking lot, "I am in a group of 13 seniors which have not finished yet. We still have one project."

What happened in between leaving school and coming back for tailgate seems mostly like a dream, not while it was happening, but looking back I wonder what really happened during those 2 hours. Radioshack, Party America, Sara's graduation party then back for tailgate.

I do remember much what happened up until the show started. Mostly a lot of running around frantically. But Goldson walked out on the stage and gave the opening speech and the audience started cheering before it even started.

Once again the musicals were a blur of laughter and excitment. Definately one of the best moments of my high school career was walking in from the side door and having everyone cheering and whistling as I had a grand entrance to the song Duffman (sounds like Barry white). More blurring and a few missed cues and ours was over, but I did not think about it at all. The only thing on my mind was the next show. My heart actually started racing when the last one began, partially because I knew it was the end, and partially because I was running up the catwalk ladder because we got to drop nearly $120 dollars worth of desserts on to the stage.

I swear I could feel my heart hitting my rib cage while I stood on the catwalk looking down at the preformers and holding cupcakes just waiting to drop them. Looking around at all these other people woudl were just as excited as me. Then it began and the dropping of food was the 2nd greatest moment in Theatre ensemble history. The first? We then all quickly climbed down and took bows and started the largest food fight of my life.

Mimicking Jessica, Surreal. I ran out and took a bow with ensemble and the lights went out and I slipped on the frosting covering the stage and landed on my back. The next moment the lights came back up and I saw some of my best friends having a food fight in slow motion. All I can think of to describe that moment is a quote from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower"

"And in that moment we felt infinite."

The food fight on stage continued for a while and included all of us arm over arm singing "What the world needs now, is love, sweet love, its the only thing that there's just too little of."

We cleaned up the stage, took showers in the locker room (another thing I never thought I would do in high school) and returned for final circle.

I would never attempt to try and tell you what happened in that circle. But it lasted for hours, was pure elation, and had the best ending with everyone laying on the floor, which we had done all the time in class together.

After much delay, we left, a few of us would go back to Ely's and sit and talk for a while. Upon leaving Ely's house with Megan I was thinking about something. Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are dead. The part where they talk about death and say that death is not a sudden event but a gradual lack of reappearance.

It has not hit me yet that I have graduated because I am still convinced that I will go back to school on monday, but I am going to realize it over the summer. Thankfully everyone is still going to be here then.

Just Showed Up

Spending my time sleep walking
Moving my mouth but not saying a thing
Hoping the changes would take by working their way from the outside in
I was in love with an idea
Preoccupied with how a life should appear
Spending my time at the surface repairing the holes in the shiny veneer

There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real

And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright

I'm going to live my life inspired
Look for the holy in the common place
Open the windows and feel all that's honest and real until I'm truly amazed
I'm going to feel all my emotions
I'm going to look you in the eyes
I'm going to listen and hear until it's finally clear and it changes our lives

There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real

And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright

Oh the glory of God is man fully alive
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive

There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real

And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright

(Have I ever expressed to you my extreme love of Sara Groves)

I am officially addicted to Google Video

I would also like to introduce everyone to the band that will be playing at my 19 birthday party.

I really want to do this at Gordon now

This actually makes me kind of sad, because I want sooooo much to be this cool!

BUBBLES!!!!

These videos alone make me wish I was going to Baylor!

and when you go to college...

You must find these guys, because they are my new best friends.

Sarah, Your College Rocks Too

And here's the proof.